“Is there any hope for me if I’ve committed a terrible sin?”
Of course there is, that’s why Jesus died on the cross. The good news is that you understand that what you have done is a terrible sin against the Lord. God has made your conscience sensitive to His Law and you have responded to your conscience and the leading of the Holy Spirit to seek reconciliation and forgiveness with the Lord.
But the question is “how is the gospel applied to my terrible sin? Or maybe, what should I do if I’ve committed a terrible sin?”
First, confess it to the Lord. Only you will be able to tell if your heart is genuinely sorry for what you’ve done. Your relationship to the Lord is the most important relationship that you have and God wants to talk to you about this terrible sin. He wants you to see exactly how terrible and heinous it is in His sight. He wants you to understand what you really deserve for sinning against a holy God. And what you deserve is to face the wrath of God, experiencing physical death and spiritual death for all eternity. Contemplating and meditating on the seriousness of this situation is healthy for your soul and it will enable you to appreciate the lengths that God has gone to in order for you to not have to face His wrath. Namely, that God the Father, sent His own Son, Jesus Christ, to die in your place, physically and to wash you clean from all your sins, past, present and future.
Secondly, repent of your sin. This simply means to turn away from your sinful behavior and to ask the Lord to cleanse your heart from ever wanting to sin in this way again. Repentance is about turn away from sin but also turning back to the Lord. It is about making a change.
Thirdly, our repentance leads us to put our faith in Christ and His work accomplished through His life, death, resurrection and reign. We are believing that the promises of God are better than the promises of the sin we just committed. We are putting our faith into Jesus who has taken our sin upon himself and placed his righteousness upon us.
Finally, we begin to obey the Lord by the power of the Holy Spirit working in us. The grace that we have received from Christ’s redemptive work does not allow us to keep on sinning but rather to develop a hatred for sin and a love for obedience to God and His Word. Leviticus 20:7-8 says, “Consecrate yourselves, therefore, and be holy, for I am the Lord your God. Keep my statutes and do them; I am the Lord who sanctifies.”
Live everyday in this rhythm of confession, repentance, faith and obedience. Believe with the greatest confidence that Jesus died for your most heinous and terrible sins and He does not want you to be enslaved to it any longer. Nor does Jesus want you to despair because of your sin. Jesus wants you to find hope in His gospel.
All for Jesus,